just some more pics from the shrektech experience
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So I know I haven’t said much on here about where I’ve been this past month, but I was kind of saving it until I had some wonderful pictures to go along with it. Last second I was approached for a friend to come and join the tech crew at the largest community theatre in Indianapolis and of course, having always wanted to get into theatre and never even knowing where to start I accepted. Because I have an extreme issue with anxiety I was incredibly concerned because when I get set off into attacks its..not pretty to say the least. My first day I actually had one of the worst attacks of my life. I got so sick, I couldn’t breathe, I was crying on the bathroom floor. Thank god this was rehersal and not an actual show. I thought I may have to go to the hospital, and I was in such a state I couldn’t even call for help. After laying on the bathroom floor for a while I finally calmed down enough to go back and try again. I worried every single day that I would get set off again, because I didn’t want to. I loved it there from day one, but as I have learned in the past just because I love something doesn’t mean my condition won’t push me out of it. For once I managed to press on, but I was still awkward and scared to talk to much of anyone in anyway but on our headsets until the last couple days. In those days I managed to bond with the cast and crew so much that I was finally invited to join the circle before the show where I was pushed into the middle by my friend who thanked me for my spotlight work and everyone began gushing and complimenting me on my work, not believing it was my first time, or that I was now working without the script because I had the show memorized, or telling me how skillful I was on the lights during a particularly tricky scene (Somethin goin on around here) These are just a few of the pictures I managed to nab, not to brag or show off as much as to keep as a reminder that for once in my life I overcame my own mind, I felt safe and comfortable, welcome and happy, and that this isn’t some dream. I have these pictures as proof to me and maybe to others that there is something out there that will be so strong and resonating in you that you too can overcome your issues and fears, no matter how much it feels like they’ll tear you down. I will be going back to this theatre, I will be working tech, and, if my body allows, and it damn well better, I /WILL/ be auditioning for Hairspray in December and for Chicago later that year. This feels like the start of something. I hope I’m right.
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